Later when I was worry meditating once again, I remembered the number and looked it up. Psalm 113 is a psalm of praise to our Lord. Praise Him and praise Him again.
"Hallelujah! Praise the Lord!
Go ahead, praise the Lord.
All you loving servants of God! 'Keep it up! Praise Him some more!
For the glorious name of the Lord is
Blessed forever and ever.
from sunrise brilliance to sunset beauty
Lift up his praise from dawn to dusk!"
Psalm 113: 1-3 Passion Translation
Two hours later while at home my eyes started acting funky. I began seeing zig-zag colored lights shimmering and moving and they took up the right side of my vision. Then faces on the TV became distorted so I could only see fractured faces. It was scary. This lasted about 20 minutes and then disappeared. Monday we headed to the eye clinic for a thorough exam.......was it the retinas? Was it a blood clot? Was it from the antibiotic I am on, the eye injections, or the cancer drugs? We don't know the answers concerning the meds, but they were able to rule out the retinas or blood clots, so are calling it an "ocular migraine" without a pain. I did have a slight headache afterwards. One more surprise that I did not need at this time of so many things on my plate. Seriously? Needless to say this event worked to take away the beauty of the earlier event.
Today God brought my focus back on worship and praise. Praising Him in the midst of it all. Praising Him for being in control when I am not. Praising this God of ours who is a miracle making mountain moving God who walks with us every step of the way through the valleys. Through the lows and the highs.
It is not easy, this sacrifice of praise. It may not change my circumstances, and it maybe won't change yours, but it does shift our focus off of it all and on to the Lord our God and in praising God something does shift. Inside of us. God's purpose for praise is not just for His glory....to pat Him on the back. His purpose is for us to see His glory and the power of His love for us, His kids. Praise is a weapon of warfare in a world where Satan works hard to destroy our relationships with our Lord. Praise shifts the atmosphere around us and in us, loosing fear and worry tentacles and kicking them out and filling us with God's peace no matter what we are walking through. Again, I will say it is not easy, but it is possible.
So today as I prep for surgery, and tomorrow as I go through the tube insertion and then surgery, and as I recover I will be praising my God. For His grace provides. His love covers. His hands heal. I pray that this day, this week you find yourself praising God for His goodness in the midst of life and whatever circumstances come your way. It is how we connect with God. It is how we shift the atmosphere....... It is how we fight our battles.............