"Your own ears will hear him. Right behind you a voice will say, "This is the way you should go," whether to the right or to the left."
A year ago Joel and I decided it was time to make plans for our retirement move. Joel is on ELCA disability until he is 66 due to Lyme Disease and CFS, so we thought it was a good time to move. We started talking about where to retire, packed a box here and there, and prayed hard for direction, asking for this house to sell and the right house to buy.We made the decision to move back to Joel's home town to be close to his aging mother, and contacted his cousin and a realtor. We prayed, read scripture, and prayed some more all the while working hard at moving forward in our plan. We were sure we would be moving this summer and we just knew God was on board!
Even though we were looking online at houses, not one felt "right". Then the end of May I had a strong reaction to a new treatment that kept me mostly horizontal for 2 months. I finally started to get better in August and at my last appointment the doctor was seeing good improvements in me ~ and Joel? He had regressed and our doctor suggested he not work even 15 hrs a week. We know treating chronic Lyme is a roller coaster ride, but we were still very disappointed.
We began to reassess our plans. Sitting still before God this week, we suddenly could clearly see how we each were acting like an impatient child ~ you know~ a child who has hold of his or her daddy's hand and is trying hard to pull them forward. "Come on Dad...hurry up!" A child that was impatient to get where he or she wanted to go.
With the patience and guidance of a loving Father, we had an aha moment of understanding and came to a place of acceptance. This is where God wants us to be for now. From a practical point of view it makes sense. The economy is down, the housing market is bad here, our health is still at a challenging level, and if Joel does get well enough to take another pastoral interim position, this would be a good place for that. More importantly for us is God's point of view.......HIS plan. And we believe His plan is for us to stay put. Sometimes God must just shake His head at how hard we try to "make things happen"!
Certainly, we all have times in our lives where are impatient for our plans to fall into place. Sometimes we believe we are in God's will, and find out later that our own desires were getting in the way. Maybe we are so eager to move forward that we don't take the time to sit quietly before God, and listen for His guidance. Thankfully, if we are asking for His guidance He will close doors and open windows, as He tells us to "go to the left...or go to the right...or "be still". He does know best.
"Be still and know that I am God"
Psalm 46:10Guess it is time to unpack those Christmas dishes! And I plan to sing praises while doing so~ believing that we are right where we are supposed to be, and in His perfect ways when it is time to move He will lead the way. I am guessing we won't need to tug on His arm at all!
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