Tuesday, June 23, 2009


Lately I have been walking through the desert feeling as prickly and dry as the cactus in this picture. I cannot seem to pull up anything inspirational to write about. I read or hear something inspirational and pick up a pencil and paper...and that is far as I get. I am definitely in a dry spell. I have tried to figure out why, and lately feel God has me in a dormant state of stillness to teach me. I believe He is asking me a rhetorical question...."How can you write and inspire others when you do not quench your own thirst with my Word?"
I am in need of spiritual waters. I am dry and prickly because I do not nourish my own soul.

Isaiah 35:6 says, "Then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue shout for joy. Water will gush forth in the wilderness, and streams in the desert.

I am clinging to this verse today. God is waiting for me to feed my soul in His waters. He will make streams in the wasteland....streams in the desert when I am obedient to his teaching. My "muted tongue" will once again shout for joy, and I will return to my deep desire to write again with inspiration.


Patty said...

Oh Renee... I have been there. I pray that you will find the nourishment for your soul that you are in need of right now. I am stopping to pray for you right now...

I have been wondering about you and your husband, since his diagnosis of Lyme disease. how are you both managing?

Blessings, Patty

Lisa Buffaloe said...

I'm praying for you, sweet lady. I do understand those parched times.

Praying that in the desert, you will be blessed with special moments with God.

Renee said...

Thank you Patty for your prayers. They are much appreciated.
My husband Joel will start treatment for Lyme and the co-infection Bartonella next Monday. He is hoping he will only need a week off from work. I now have H Pylori so am taking large doses of different antibiotics to kill that off which is also causing alot of die off of lyme. I am pretty weak and miserable but hopeful it will be gone soon and I can resume with just Lyme treatment. Thanks for asking.

Renee said...

Hi Lisa
Thanks for the prayers! So comforting. Special moments with God...I look forward to more of those.

Jan Lyn said...

Hello Dear One,
I empathize. I struggle with talking and writing about experience with God in ministries vs. really spending time in his presence. I've really been aware that I need more time and more quiet time to be renewed lately.

I keep writing blog pieces that sit here and don't post them for one reason or another so am a bit dry and restless myself...lol.

I will keep you and your husband in prayer and hope you BOTH feel better. Have you ever checked this out online? We'd love to have you join in. I keep meaning to mention it to you as it is such a loving group of Christian women.

Much love,
Jan Lyn

Malva said...

Renee, I'm sorry that you feel so bad and I'm praying for you.

Recently I have been thinking a lot about Bible figures spending time in the desert, and how it prepared them for a very fruitful season afterwards - Moses, David, Elijah, John the Baptist, Paul, and so on.
Their desert seasons preceeded the best and most successful times of their lives.
They had to be patient, though.

Be patient with yourself and don't condemn yourself because you can't meet your own expectations of yourself right now.
It may be time to just sit back, take a deep breath and relax at the feet of your Father, or like a child, you may just sit on His lap, quietly and joyfully, nothing else needed at the moment. He will take care of all the rest.

Peace, rest and restored joy to you.

Renee said...

thanks Jan Lyn for the encouragement and for the web site.
I did go there and found it very interesting and joined on the spot. It looks helpful for me.
Thank you for your prayers. They are a comfort.

Renee said...

What a beautiful vision for me...sitting at the knee of Jesus or Lord. Just resting and refueling and restoring. Thank you for your encouragement and insightst.

Jan Lyn said...

I'm so glad, Renee. I didn't want you to feel pressured to, but had a feeling it may be a place you might enjoy. It is like my renewal spot that allows me to continue working in a more challenging Quaker ministry online. I do a little grp. for LW on good diets in our illness, but really I get way more from them and wanted a place to go to have book studies and bible studies which I lack--can't get out much. I found a whole lot more there!
Jan Lyn

Renee said...

It is a good place and I am looking forward to filling in some gaps there....you can feel the Lord there.