"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
This past week has been a tough one for me. I have been dealing with a secondary health issue for several months and it has now set me back into a relapse with my Lyme and CFS/ME. To add to the mix my back has gone out and I was exposed to mold which I have a severe allergy to. I am spending most of the time laying quietly, unable to be on my feet much at all. I am weak, having extreme exhaustion, and an increase of pain. I have not felt this bad in over two years. My hubby is fixing my meals, and caring for me which is difficult with his health issues and attempt to work part time.
Our circumstances have given rise to resignation and depression in me and everything looks very grey. At times I confess it would be easier to just give up hope. On days like this I am tempted to wonder what God is thinking! Is this really how he wants us to live? Is there any hope for better days ahead?
Joyce Meyer mentioned this morning that "We may not know what God is doing, but GOD knows what He is doing. Our focus needs to be on TRUSTING God and His plan for our lives."
Proverbs 3 came to my mind along with Jeremiah 29:11...The Message says:
"I know what I am doing. I have it all planned out ~ plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. When you call on me, when you pray to me I will listen. When you come looking for me you will find me."
Today I am thankful that I can trust God with all my heart. That He KNOWS what He is doing even when I cannot see the light. I am thankful that He will not abandon us to our illnesses, but has plans to care for us and give us a future. In this world and the next.
Today I am clinging to these verses, and as I spend the days putting my energy into breathing, resting, and healing, I give thanks for the hope I have in Christ Jesus.