Saturday, February 27, 2010

Trust In The Lord With ALL Your Heart

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5,6

I am writing about fear again this week. I have been looking back over the past few months with a questioning heart. I have been struggling with a health issue and am very worried that the slow winding path that led me to the GYN will result in serious consequences. I look back at my primary care doctor who gave me faulty information after a biopsy. I look back at the symptoms I ignored, even though I stewed about them.......still thinking I had all the right information. I think I knew inside that something was wrong, but did not want to acknowledge it. I trusted the tests, the doctor, the practitioner, and my own intuition and now am finding myself facing a medical procedure that will "tell us more". My sense of peace was destroyed when the GYN stated that the original test was "worthless" and my symptoms could be cancer. All this time later. Here I am with fear not only knocking on my door, but a sense of dismay at all the time wasted. "What if."...and "If only"....have crowded into my mind.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."

Unfortunately, I cannot change a thing. It is what it is, and my life is in God's hands. It always has been. Still, fear wants to come in and stay for dinner and blame wants me to beat myself up for letting fear rule in my decisions.

Scriptures have helped me cope with this trial and battlefield in my mind. Letting Satan know he cannot live rent free in my brain has helped. Learning from another blogger an affective tool for negative thinking, I have rejected Satan's whispers in my ear, and demanded he leave in the name of Jesus. Prayer is holding me in place and lest I forget, God tells me in Isaiah 41 (The Message) "Don't panic. I am with you. There is no need to fear, for I am your God. I'll give you strength. I will help you. I will hold you steady and keep a firm grip on you."

I don't know my future, but I do know who holds the future. I am learning so much on this journey already. God is teaching me to let go of my need to be in control, and to let God take the reins. He will definitely do a better job of it!

"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."
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25 comments:

Denise said...

I love this post.

Whidbey Woman said...

AMEN!

Karen said...

He is more than enough. He is with you! God bless you and thank you for sharing this. I will be praying for you.

rcubes said...

Will keep you in prayers sister. That is my life verse. And I love Philippians 4:6,7. May His healing, strength, comfort and protection cover you. God bless.

Georgia said...

Such an amazing post of a very great lady! My prayers are with you. In fact, and if you don't mind, I'd like to put your name in the prayer request box at my church so I can have my church family pray for you for your complete healing.

God bless you today and every day!

Georgia

Cathy said...

God is always with us and will never leave nor forsake us. Praying for a good report and for God's healing touch ~ Praying for peace for you ~
Blessings ~

Saleslady371 said...

I'm praying for you, Renee. Isa 41:10 is so comforting to me, too.

Rhodema@MommyLife said...

Praying for you. Wish you didn't have to go through this but know God holds you every step of the way.

Joan said...

Renee - I've heard that the Bible says "fear not" or "do not fear" 365 times - once for each day of the year.

It's easier said than done and only by putting our faith and trust in the one who created us can we overcome our fears.

Praying for you, dear one.

sarah said...

I'm praying for you....Stay strong...and great post. Sarah

LeAnn * ~ See Great Things said...

May the Lord bless you with peace and confidence as you journey on. I think of all that this verse has accomplished in so many lives. May it be a powerful tool in yours right now.

Diva Kreszl said...

holding you in prayer!

Mevely317 said...

"What if" ... "If only" -- Renee, I've been sooo there! Fear can be so cruel and pervasive, can't it?
Please count me in; I'm here for you ...holding you in my prayers.

Sandi@ Rose Chintz Cottage said...

Fear of the unknown is a battle most of us face at one time or another. But we can trust the unknown to our known God because He holds our future in His hands. I will be praying for you.

Blessings,
Sandi

Charlotte said...

It is understandable that you are fearful. I don't think there is a person anywhere who would not respond in that way. It sounds like you are taking steps to not let that fear take control of your life though. That is the important thing. I am joining the many others who are praying for you. He will be with you all the way. Keep holding His hand and trusting that whatever comes your way, He will never leave you.
Blessings and prayers,
Charlotte

The Muse said...

you are not alone...
there are many who lift you up.
and i believe in those verses.

may this sunday give you peace.

Ginger said...

I think that we all tend to say what if, what are normal aces and pains. You will be in my pray and I pray that you will have comfort during this time.
God Bless you,
Ginger

jo.attalife said...

Trust. A necessary lesson. One we need to learn again and again.
I praise God for your attitude of trust. God will not fail, but will deliver You in whatever way He deems fit, for His greater glory.
God bless you, sister.
Please click here for mine.

Lisa Buffaloe said...

My prayers continue for you and with you. Placing you gently in His loving, healing hands.

Patty said...

God is with you Renee...and all this comes as no surprise to Him. Fear does paralyze us..it renders us helpless and we feel hopeless. but we know we are not, the enemy only wants us to think we are.

I will pray, I know this place you are in...thank you for posting this so we can pray.

Blessings, Patty

daylily777 said...

I am praying for you Renee.We are more than conquerors through him him who loves us . We have the same power that raised Jesus from the dead living in us through his indwelling spirit.Whatever happens he will carry you through.
Love in Christ,
~Myrna

Ms.Daisy said...

Renee,
I know that things look dark right now but, please be hopeful that all will be well with all the prayers that are coming your way! God answers prayer!


Blessings,
Jean

Jan Lyn said...

Oh Renee, I am a 'what if' and 'if only' type person. I have not been reading/doing blogs for some time and had a few minutes to visit you though. I'm so glad I did. I will pray for you. Please know you touched my heart deeply with this post.
Jan Lyn x

Sharon and Michael said...

Will be praying for you. How scary it must be to hear the GYN's words!

Thanks for the reminder of Who has our back. :)

Gayle said...

A wonderful post, Renee. I've often wondered why, with such a big God, fear is so easy, and faith is sometimes so hard.