As I just shared, for several weeks I have been taking time in the mornings to visualize myself going into a garden to sit with Jesus. Often it is a time to experience His love, or just listen for His voice through thoughts that come into my mind. I also visualize myself going through a door of healing and "explore" what is inside this door. It is really a gate and when I walk through it I enter a beautiful garden. Usually there are flowers everywhere, lots of trees, birds, etc.
About two weeks ago I thought to myself, hmmm...I always go to the right when I enter this place, so I looked to the left and saw it was not very light on this side of the path. No sunshine to speak of and very little green areas. There were few trees but the ground was broken up, kind of brown, and not easy to walk on. I felt strongly that this was a place in me that needed healing.
Switching gears for a moment ~ This past Sunday I watched the early morning service with Rick Warren online and he spoke on the parable of the 4 kinds of soils. One thing he said really stood out for me~ the fact that the one healthy soil took in seeds, but the weeds overtook the soil and nothing grew well. He went on to say that weeds keep us from hearing the voice of God speak to us. One of the biggest weeds in our lives he share, was worry. That got my attention.
Now, moving ahead to this morning, I did my usual prayers and scriptures and then visited Jesus in the garden...I posed a question to Him today ~How do I get rid of my fears, Lord? It came to my mind~ one fear at a time ~ Then I went through the door of healing. When I entered I noticed once again the bright sunny area that fills me with joy and then behind me the darker area with the lumpy ground. As I looked down at this ground it took my breath away. I finally got it! What I had been seeing all this time were weeds. The weeds of worry, fear, etc. in my life. I realized that I could not turn my back on these weeds, that I needed to take the time to remove them one by one. Otherwise they would just follow me into the future and interfere with what God wants for my life.
Weeds of worry. We may all have them. I find this habit of worrying has kept me from God's best for far too long and I am going to start removing these weeds of worry one at a time. Weeding is hard work, but it is worth the results.
Isn't God's love for us wonderful! He speaks to us in the most amazing ways.
Amazing grace. Oh, grace me again and again, Lord!!!