Thursday, January 10, 2013

Trust and Rest

It was one year ago this month that my husband was healed overnight from Lyme Disease, CFS, arthritis, hypothyroidism, and more.  Just like that he went from being on disability to freely being able to go back to the work he loves~ his calling as a pastor.  To say we were amazed and grateful would be an understatement.  This put us on a quest for my own healing from Lyme Disease that went undiagnosed for at least 23 years and kept me viewing life from my sofa.

My journey really starts in November of 2011 when I began having repressed memories of sexual abuse surface 57 years after they occurred.  Throughout the past 14 months, a walk in the park at dusk, a show on TV, something I read in a book, or just out of the blue, episodes of PTS shake up my world.  As time goes by, these events have lessened in intensity and number because of the healing taking place. I am very blessed to have my husband's full support, a counselor, and now Sozo ministry sessions helping me to walk into the freedom that Christ died for~ "It is for freedom that Christ set us free. Stand firm then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery."  Gal. 5:1

As I struggled to understand and accept what was happening, Jesus would often whisper in my ear, "Trust me".  I did not want to be at this place, I wanted to be healed physically overnight just like my sweet husband.  I had so many plans.......places to go......grandchildren to hug.  I am seeing that kind of healing take place as a process and I am doing more than I have in years, but I know that the way to my complete healing is through the emotional trauma that surfaced.  God has a plan for good, and I am so thankful He continues to show me the way, bringing me encouragement and insights through devotionals, teachings, Sozo, and writings like Bonnie Gray's over at Faith Barista.

It is a matter of trust, and in this area of my life there is a "trust deficit".  In one of our morning devotional books Pam Kidd shared that God had brought to mind the words "trust deficit" in response to the fear she was experiencing from all the changes in her life. She reflected back to the blessing her husband ended every service with in the congregation he served for many years, and how she was now finding herself in need of hearing it.

"Go out into the world and fear nothing!"


I felt God leading me to use the word TRUST as my word for this year to meditate on........and yet.....on the other hand, God has sent me the word REST so often in the past 4 months that I cannot deny its importance. Matthew 11:28-30 almost has its own heartbeat within me now, as the living Word,  because it has come to me at least 25 times from 25 different sources.  Over and over again I have been hearing from God~ "rest in Me",  and I am still learning all that it means.

Then Jesus said,
'Come unto me all of you who are weary
and carrying heavy burdens,
and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you.
Let me teach you
because I am humble and gentle at heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.'" (NLT)
"My yoke is easy
and my burden is light.'" ( NIV)
Matthew 11:28-30

So two it is!   TRUST and REST. 

In December God "highlighted" this verse for me and then confirmed it when someone praying for my healing told me that God shared it with her. I have decided to meditate on this verse for the year as a good reminder of God's desire for me to TRUST in the LORD with all my heart, and REST in HIM.  It is found in Isaiah 30:15.
"For thus says the Lord God,
the Holy One of Israel,
In returning and rest you shall be saved
In quietness(rest) and trust
 shall be your strength."
Isaiah 30:15
I am linking up today with Bonnie over at 


NanaNor's said...

Dear Renee, So thankful for the Lord's continued healing of your emotions and memories which will lead to your physical healing as well.
Continue on dear one; seek Him and He will restore you!

Sheryl said...

I think those two word fit together beautifully. You can't rest if you don't trust. If you're concerned about who's in control or what's going to happen, your body might be still, but your mind sure isn't resting. At least mine isn't! I think this connection between trust and rest is the secret of Sabbath. We can take a chunk of the week to rest with God because we can trust him to provide.

May your journey to healing be a restful one this year!

Lisa notes... said...

I wasn't aware of that much in your journey, Renee. You've proven to have a faith steady and strong to have come through so much already. And faith to get through even more on your road to healing. This encourages me to rest and trust more myself. Thank you for sharing, and may the Lord bless you and your husband!

Renee said...

Thank you Noreen...God bless you and your loved ones including Hunter!

Renee said...

I like that and rest are the secret of the Sabbath... Thanks for coming by.

Renee said...

Hi Lisa
Thanks for your kind words of encouragement....God bless you and yours too!

Jan Lyn said...

Your authenticity and beautiful spirit is so inspiring, Renee. I am praying for your continued healing.

Renee said...

Thank you Jan having you stop by my place...

Elaine said...

I join in praying that your healing will be complete. And sooner than later too! Sometimes I feel like we are moving on our journey to the Lord together. You speak and my heart jumps with YES That's it! I appreciate your honesty and openness.

God Bless You Renee.

Renee said...

Hi Elaine
Thank you for your prayers. Hugs and prayers for you too, friend.

Amy Nabors said...

I had two words come to me this year also. One of them being trust. And what a beautiful word rest is for your year.