Certainly someone has to worry and lose sleep over finding the cleanest and safest places to stay, the food I will need on my limited diet, the bedding, air purifier and more that "might" be needed. Like a good scout, we like to be prepared!
I have spent hours on the Internet mapping distances, searching for accommodations, and looking for places that we would enjoy seeing along the way. Once we arrive will be staying 6 days in Westport CT. ~ 1283 miles from our home. Ahhhhh there is that anxiety again.
The Healing Conference is Friday~ Sunday noon. Short in length and small in size. We like that, and are very excited to attend. Before it starts and after it is over we will be visiting New York City. Trains, subways, buses and hopefully only a few taxis later we will have seen the sights and experienced the hustle bustle of NYC. We have lived in a few big cities over the years, and traveled far and wide, but the East Coast is new territory for us~especially me, and out of our comfort zone. Butterflies are rising!
Unfortunately for the past month I have been challenged once again by an increased reaction to some exposures. Staying in a hotel exposes me to air fresheners and cleaning supplies. The traveling challenges the pain levels I am experiencing. It would be easy to just stay home and wait until I am better, right?
It would be easy, but it would be wrong.
We are going because we feel strongly that God guided us to attend this conference. We prayed and prayed about it, we asked for confirmations, we laid out a fleece ~ twice. All confirmed. We are to go. Yet the anxiety was increasing instead of decreasing.
After having a meltdown two night ago due to pain levels and stress, I picked up a newsletter from Andrew Wommack in which he wrote about the prophet Elijah. His words were the comfort and push I needed to stop worrying and put my trust in God. In 1 Kings 17 God tells Elijah where he is to go. Elijah does not know how he will do this, but God tells him not to worry....He will provide. He just needs to take that step of faith and go where God has directed. The rest will be taken care of by his Lord. These words from Andrew resonated with me deep inside. "God is sending the provisions you will need, not to where you are, but to where He told you to go.'
Earlier Joel had prayed about our trip and my anxiety over going and he felt God whisper to him, "Just make plans and go, I will work out everything." And now, through a newsletter that arrived in the mail, God confirmed those words He spoke to Joel.
So, I am talking a leap of faith, doing what I can to prepare, but without the anxiety..... and leaving the rest in God's hands. He has told us to go and we will be obedience. It is a matter of trust. I look forward to sharing it all with you at the end of our journey with Jesus to the East Coast. We are expecting Him to rock our world and supply all our needs along the way. After all we are going where He told us to go.
"Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid.
For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."