This past Wednesday I went in to the local surgical center for an endoscopy. Everything went like clockwork...and at this point things look normal. The precautionary biopsies will come back in a couple of weeks. My reactions were minimal and recovery has gone well for someone with several chronic illnesses. Thank you so much for your prayers!
My husband and I felt I was in capable hands ~ well skilled technicians doing their job. They do these type of procedures all day long and see so many different people moving in and out..they do not get attached to any of the patients. I saw the Dr. for 3 minutes before the procedure, and he talked to my husband for a whole 15 seconds afterwards to let him know things were normal. This man never once looked into my eyes or Joel's. Just did his job and did it well which is what you want....but.....yet....the detachment we both felt was unsettling to say the least. He had my life in his hands, and he never saw me as the person I am.
I found myself comparing this experience to my relationship with God. Wouldn't it be awful if our connection to God was distant....detached? He is, after all the God of the Universe. Powerful, all knowing, above us in all things. He holds our lives in His capable hands, but He desires more from us than just a distant connection. He desires a true personal relationship. One on one. He knows the very number of hairs we have on our head. He formed us in our mother's womb. We are important to Him. He loves us....He delights in us! He wants us to "Be close, my child."
Lord, let me never take your relationship with me for granted. Thank you God for loving me, caring for me, wanting me close. Thank you God for delighting in me. The reassurance I feel realizing this cannot be measured. May we all hunger for this type of relationship, and never distance ourselves from such a loving Father. In Jesus name.....Amen
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