Thursday, May 19, 2016
And Then God.......Only God!
On the side of our house stands a dying tree. When we first moved here this crab apple tree would be full of pink blooms each Spring. It was so pretty. And then sometime over the years as Joel and I took up residence in our chairs fighting Lyme trying to find some sense of normalcy in each day, the tree became sick and old. It bloomed less and less and last year took a "last stand" as we spoke to the tree and prayed over it. (It is living after all, and we do have dominion over nature.) Well, our praying did not change the outcome. It is barely standing and will need to come down this Spring.
It grieves us. As I stood and stared at the beached wood, sparse branches with no sign of green or pink anywhere, I felt sadness well up inside. And gratitude. So much gratitude. Gratitude that we are not like this dying tree. When I saw the Lyme specialist in 2007 she told me my body was functioning at around 20%. I was slowly dying. When Joel was diagnosed he was functioning at 45% and had to go on disability for 3 years. He managed 15 hours a week of work at a church where people treated him with such grace. Bless you St. Peter's Lutheran. Bless you.
During that season of our lives, Joel slept 9 hours a night and napped 4 hours a day to function. I spent a great deal of my days laying on the sofa or in bed. Our sweet dog Levi was our only company most of the time. Just fixing meals was an effort. It. was. scary.
And then..........thanks to our friend Katherine's suggestion and a teaching by Andrew Wommack, our world changed overnight. Joel was miraculously healed and I began the process of healing. I am not where I want to be, but I am not where I was. I am healed and have been set free, and I expect all symptoms to leave as God promises in His Word.
Unlike our apple tree, life returned to us and we were able to flourish. We never want to forget the precious restored gift of life that we were given. We have plans to wear out, not rust out, serving God as He guides us, sharing who He is!
Our poor apple tree has succumbed to age and disease, but I will remember its beauty in Springtime, the way God created it. And I will remember that we once looked like this dying tree, and then God............only God.