Deeper water.....God beckons us into deeper water. Ezekiel spoke of it when he described his vision from God in chapter 47 of his Old Testament book. In the vision an angel measured the water in the river coming from the Temple of God...first ankle deep, then knee deep, waist deep....still manageable. Still in his control. And then Ezekiel said, "He measured off another thousand and by now it was a river I could not cross, because the water had risen and was deep enough to swim in~ a river that no one could cross." Ezekiel 47:5
Way over his head. The water. The place where he had to depend on God to survive the deep. It beckoned him....this place of surrender and trust.
I first reflected on Ezekiel's vision when we were planning a trip last fall to a conference on healing being held in CT. With these and many other words from God on living waters and His provisions, I pondered what God was asking. As many of you know, a trip like this was a really big deal for me. I had been homebound for 10 years, not traveling anywhere except to see the doctor treating me for Lyme Disease and other nasty bacteria. Then God opened our eyes to His desire for us to be well, and my husband was healed overnight from Lyme and other health issues. My healing has been more of a process and I worried that I was not yet ready for such a big trip.
Fear told me to stay home. Just stay home. Stay safe.....stay protected....stay within the borders. The enemy also whispered lies, but God called me into deeper waters, asking me to trust Him. I did. He provided above and beyond what I could ask or think, and we had a life changing, powerful two weeks, making a vacation of it, traveling 3,000 miles, and attending a conference on healing. Only God.
A few weeks ago, I began reading Heidi Baker's book, "Birthing The Miraculous" and came across the story in Ezekiel once again. Deeper water.......where we cannot swim alone. God calls us to a place of complete surrender. While still reading the book, I also came across teachings on this vision that brought me to a "less of me and more of You" place Deeper, deeper than I could ever imagined, my heart opened to Holy Spirit and I was immersed in His presence. Undone by His love.
At times everything in me cried out......stay! Stay on the bank of the river. Wade don't dive. It is safer here in the familiar. You can manage your life as it is, and serve Him without full surrender. Just stay, and avoid the risk. My heart was willing and still is, but sometimes the flesh is weak. Yet I am drawn to this "something more" He offers through intimacy, and I cannot resist His voice. God is trustworthy, this I believe. Holy Spirit knows what He is doing as He heals the inner crevices of my soul and offers more of God. Trembling I whisper, "Spirit lead me to where my trust is without borders".
God calls us to a deeper relationship with Him and when we get past the fears and experience the deeper water we only want more. Here we find life and healing as Ezekiel says in Ezekiel 47:6-9. In the river, referred to in Ezekiel as the River of Healing, we are immersed in His heart and He in ours. We are cleansed, healed, blessed. Blessed to be a blessing....
Stay. Come. At times I still ponder the choices, but we are called to take a deep breath, dive in, let go, and embrace God. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him ( surrender, obedience, immersion) and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:4,5
Staying safe in "Renee's world" is no longer really an option for me, because the truth is, the. truth. is. being immersed in the river of God, saying yes to Him IS the safest place to be. This is where I need to be. Where He beckons us all.......
I am linking up today with Bonnie over at Faith Barista. Her prompt word for today is "stay".