When our oldest daughter was here she brought a 1000 piece puzzle along to work on. It tweeked my interest, so as soon as I felt up to it Joel and I headed out to Hobby Lobby to buy a puzzle. I found a 500 piece one that was a country fall scene....my favorite season of the year!
We put the last pieces in place just last night after working on it off and on for a couple of weeks. Joel and I sometimes worked on it together so when there was only 20 pieces left I invited him to come put the finishing touches on the puzzle with me. First we both commented that it did not look like we had enough pieces to finish and then we noticed that even with just a few pieces left, we were struggling with getting them in place. We had to turn, twist, study, and try more than once to make them fit. There was a sense of accomplishment when we finished, and it was a pretty scene to enjoy.
Now we are down to the last 20 pieces of the puzzle. Thursday I go in to see the radiology oncologist to make sure all is looking well. It is and I am sure I will have the green light to go ahead and wear a bra, use deoderant, and stop the three times a day treatments of the skin. More pieces in place!
The final 10 pieces will require prayer, research, and hearing from God. I see the clinical oncologist the same day to discuss hormone therapy since the cancer I had was hormone positive. The medication has several tough common side effects and because it puts you at risk for fractures and bone loss, the Dr. wants me to take a drug for that too. The side effects for that are really scary. There are several inhibitor drugs to try, if one causes issues, the next might work, etc. etc. The Dr. pretty much told me she does not know if I can take them but we will just keep trying.
It is difficult to see how those final pieces will fit. I have facts, statistics, possibilities, and more, but no one can tell me if I will be one of the ones who the med works for. I looked up one well know cancer center out east and the doctor said that each patient needs to make this decision for themselves weighing in side effects and percentages, etc. I did not feel that was an option when I went to the cancer center here. Just what the doctor thought was best. I am grateful for her expertise, but know that the final decision is up to Joel, me and God.
I have been pretty stressed about this lately. Fear fueling the what ifs and maybes, etc. Today, it all came to a head, and after talking with Joel we came to the conclusion that with prayer, listening for God's voice and His Word, research on percentages, the doctors words, and finding out if any alternative treatments are out there, I am sure we will be able to complete this puzzle and enjoy the results. One day at a time!